FIRST STEP FOR My FUTURE
I walk
in sidewalk with the sun stinging my body, I feel it has been tired, I wanna to
lay in my bed, I want to rest and enjoy my dream for amoment, but I bought
firewood that has not sold out, yeah this is must I do everyday. Order my
firewood to get money for eating with my
lovely grandmother. Step by step I walk to find people who want to buying my
firewood.
“daughter, come here please.” a mother who call me in front
of market
“are you want to buy my firewood mrs?” I asked it
“Yes, because my firewood runs out, how its all ?” question
a mother
“its only trhee tie drunk, are you want take all mrs?” I
tastelessing for she
“Yes, let me take all” she gave me money and then I leave
she and start go to came back in my home. Because my grandmother wait me at
home.
“assalamualaikum” I run to find my grandma
“waalaikumsalam, sinta
had come back you daughter? Let to eat! Grandma cook sweet potatoes for
you” asked grandma
“grandma this is money I get on this day, I hope can to buy
eat tomorrow for us” I asked
“thanks son, lets eat and bath son, grandma will find
firewood for you sale tomorrow” asked grandma
“don’t grandma, later, sinta directly into forest to find
firewood, after pray”
I lets go to bath and eat, and
then I go to surau (small mosque) in my prayer I always to pray for my parent
and my lovely grandma, now my parent scattered, my mom stay in bandung, my dad
stay in java. But I want to leave with my grandma, I thinks my parent can happy
without me, I just hope they are get the best for they life. And may God always
blees my parent, huh remembering that makes me sad.i never thought I should
drop out of school, shelling firewood, and live with my grandma, but maybe this
is something that God gave to me, so I could live life over again the spirit of
the world. After finishing praying, quickly I let to bath and then go to
forrest find firewood to sell me tomorrow.
In forrest I collect as much
firewood, and then I tie and I brought home.
When I got home….
I waits
maghrib came, and I lay on my grandfather’s bed of an old mattres in advance,
for a moment had a break while waiting for sunset comes.i looks My old wardrobe
in the corner mybedroom. In here I see my dictionary of the English language
that I really liked, my thought at the time of junior high school, I really
like learning English. Hmm if I could still feel school, I’d be very happy, but
it’s probably just a dream that I can save it for a moment. My life with
grandma just spent working hard for get money to eat, I don’t know until when?.
Maghrib
came, I lets go to surau to pray maghrib’s prayer with my grandma. After I
finishing praying, I go to sleep.
Morning
came, I go to bath and start go to tradisional market to sell my firewode, hmm
so curiosity in this morning, I saw my grandma do not wake up by gutrans, I
looks his face so pale, and always cough, I thinks my grandma sick.
“grandma? What happen
with you? You are not healty?” my worry question
“I’am its okey fahri, maybe grandma just tired, lets eat
son, grandma save eat in cupboard”
“oke grandma, grandma its ok,sinta will go to market to shold firewood,
assalamualaikum grandma” I say good bye to grandma, and I leave she.
Alhamdulillah this day my
firewood shold outs, before I come back in my
home, I buy medicine to grandma in drugstore, and I bought a packet of
rice I hope my grandma can be health again, when I’ll I come back to my home I
saw bulletin board in high school cendawa, it is a favorite school, when I read
this bulletin board, I look a anauncement about scholarship to study in there,
im so excellent for that. And I want to let go home, to notify grandma.
“assalamualaikum, grand ma, grand ma” I scream and find my
grandma in his bedroom
“waalaikumsalam, what happen with you sinta? You look so
happy?” question grandma
“this a medicine and rice to you grandma, I hope you can get
be health grandma. Grandma when I red bulletin board in high chool cendawa, I
read anauncement, in there to accept student, to past with scholarship, this
test do two days again grandma.” I asked
“sinta, are you sure want to school?” question my grandma
“im sure grandma” my clear answer
My grandma just to silent, and she think I must join this
test,
Two
days ago, I let prepare goes to high school cendawa, I go to there with my
friend, dimas.
“grandma, I will go to high school cendawa, I hope I can to
run away for this test, pray for me grandma” I asked
“okey sinta, good luck to your test. Be your self siinta,
find your light to your future, always consistent in your ambition. Never don’t
forget to pray to Allah, Allah gave smart for you, do your test with honesty
sinta. Grandma always pray for you, I hope you get your ambition, and grandma
always keep you, I love you son” asked grandma
“okey grandma, I will make you smile, I will make you proud,
I love you grandma” I kiss hand my grandma, and I leave my grandma alone in home.
I go to
high school cendawa with dimas,he is my friend when junior school. I hope I
luck in my test, sound bell I let enter
in test room, my heart so beating because I concerned with condition my grandma
sick at my home, iam fells so nervous in my test, huft… I work my test with
full concentration focus, Alhamdulillah,
I can do my test, althought i can’t to do some question on my test.
One
hours ago, iam and dimas wait anaucement about result, iam so confused, iam
fear if I can’t run away for this scholarship. God please.. I want to school.
and then the teacher stick anauncement result graduation. Iam and dimas to push
with participant, iam so shock when I look my name written
in this anauncement, I get best score, im so happy, I cry in dimas embrace’s.
iam very hhappy, it so amazing for my life, I want let go to home, I want to
tell my grandma about my result test, Im sure my grandma very happy to listen
my news.
Iam and
dimas run so fast go to my home, so far I look my home surrounded many people,
when I will enter my home, mr. Rt stoped me,
“sinta you must stiff, you must stiff” he asked to me, I
look her eyes cry
“whathappen? Whathappen? Where my grandma sir? Where she?” I
scream and cry.
“your grandma must come back to Allah, Allah take your grandma
sinta” clear he.
I
run to meet corpse grandma, I cry in beside.
“grand ma? Why you leave me alone in here? Why grandma? I
just want tell to you, I get run away my test, I get best score, I can school
again grand ma, please listen me grand ma please…” I scrame and embrace she, I
cry. Oh Allah, why you take my lovely grandma when my happy news come to she?
Grandma not listen my happy news, but.. iam deposit To You God, please tell
happy news about my graduation to my grandma god. Make my grandma smile for
this news. “iam sorry grandma, Iam not yet make you proud and smile. Never I
thinks you must leave me. Never think your advice in this morning, is last
advice to me. Oh Allah.. I try to never giveup, Im to surrender fully. And now
I must diligent studying. I want make grandma proud with me. I will get my
ambition be TEACHER, grandma wait my success. I love you full grandma, be happy
in there. Im promise I will make you proud.
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